never give up on hope:]




last night,
i could not sleep after going to my
mother side grandmother house for a while.
earned $4 massaging my aunt.
reached home at abt 11+/-pm.
so i decided to lay in bed but
still my eyes would not shut. and so, i watched
'How to loose a guy in 10 days'.it finished rather fat
i guess.yet i still could not sleep.
everyone was in bed. so i continued watching tv.
it was 'Down with love'. interesting show i must say.

i guess it was 2am when it finished
so i laid on my back and listen to some slow,soft songs on the Mp4.
then,i started to think maturely (very rare of me to do that).
i started thinking abt what i was going to do with my life.
was i going to get a degree?
what will i be doing?
its hard when you're young and thinking shit.

what i really wanted to do was...
1. be filthy rich
-probably hotel business or my own fashion label
-why?
*so that my family could lead a better life.
2. travel across America to visit all the states there.
-with?
*a best friend who when together, it seems like we were
Rob and Big.
*a Mustang (second hand would do) which 'we' bought with
our hard earned money.
-to do what?
*do the things that are exciting, fun, limitless.


"if i could i would"i once said. :]